I hear from a lot of parents whose kids have come out as transgender, including parents of teenagers or young adults. For some parents, it seems to be the missing puzzle piece that explains why their child always seemed a bit different, or uneasy. For other parents, it comes as a complete surprise, and parents may be in disbelief that this is really happening.
Here are some of the things I most frequently find myself discussing with parents in this situation:
We do watch kids go through all sorts of phases and try on all sorts of identities as they grow up. How do we know this isn’t just one more? Fair question. But coming out as transgender is extremely difficult, and not something anyone tends to do lightly. Consider also that deciding it must be a phase, or just the influence of media, may be a way to quickly dismiss something that’s making you uncomfortable.
I often ask parents, is this like your child? Are they highly susceptible to media messages? Are they always finding a new identity based on what they see on television, for instance? Do they have a history of reinventing themselves in drastic ways? If the answer is no, then I suggest putting these questions on the backburner for a bit while we explore some other possibilities.
Many parents feel they would have, or should have, seen signs of an alternative gender identity in their child before. There are a couple of good reasons why many parents don’t.
First, the idea that there are two genders, male and female, is deeply ingrained in most of us, as is the idea that gender is not something that can change. This expectation often acts as a filter through which we perceive people. It prevents us from seeing other possibilities.
Second, gender-based expectations are communicated to kids from a very early age. Kids come to understand how they are expected to present, and often they become very skilled at adapting to those expectations. Obvious gender-nonconforming traits are often hidden or discarded, sometimes for quite a long time.
It’s not because you’re a bad parent, or you weren’t paying attention. It’s because our culture is still very devoted to limited views about gender.
This makes so much sense. There are so many emotions to process in a situation like this! On a practical level, you may worry about your kid’s physical or emotional safety if they come out as transgender. You may worry that their peers, their family members, or the wider world will be hostile to them. You may worry about the logistics of gender transitions, which perhaps you are just starting to look into, and you are realizing there is so much to learn.
In my experience with most parents, the place that feels the most sensitive and frightening is this: You may feel like you are losing your child. You raised a girl, or a boy, and you had a vision about who they were and what the future would hold. Now perhaps it feels like that’s all gone, and you are facing a stranger. You want your kid back. Every parent I’ve worked with has expressed those feelings on some level, and this is the place where the most compassion for self is needed. You’re going through a grieving process, and it isn’t easy. It doesn’t mean you’re not being supportive. You just need a safe place to process those difficult feelings, either with trusted friends, in a support group, or with a therapist one on one.
It can help to know that gender transitions are a process, not an all at once proposition. The child you raised is still there. It usually takes transgender people time to work out where they want to be and what feels right. Taking a deep breath and slowing down is okay.
The American Psychological Association has a great FAQ about transgender people, gender identity, and gender expression: https://www.apa.org/topics/lgbt/transgender.aspx
Transparent has support groups that meet regularly: http://transparentusa.org/chapters/missouri/
The Metro Trans Umbrella Group (MTUG) also has information about meetings and other local resources: https://www.stlmetrotrans.com/
If you are considering therapy for yourself, I’m happy to offer free phone consultations. I can also recommend a therapist for your child, whether they a young one, adolescent, or adult.